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Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Jamie's LiveJournal:

Sunday, August 29th, 2004
11:51 pm
quote of the night
Angela: These starburst are kinda stale maybe that's why they were so cheap.
(Angela sucking away on her starburst)
Jamie: Yeah you're slurping so loud it sounds like you are sucking dick.
(extreme laughter)

oh yeah we're high...

Current Mood: very high
Sunday, August 15th, 2004
12:18 am
such a perfect song it just doesn't mean the same anymore....
Push by Sarah McLachlan

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do you're too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

There are times I can't decide when I can't tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up & brush me off and tell me I'm okay
sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day



...I gave this song to Brian probably about 2 months before we ended...recall the line "you're the one true thing I know I can believe in" such a powerful line that held so much meaning at one point and know doesn't mean a thing to me...

why? who are you? why are you a stranger to me?

Current Mood: awake
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
6:52 pm
it's been awhile
wow...yea it's been awhile...what can i say. lots has happened...

awesome trip to Ocean Isle Beach...da bomb baby! but of course way too short. there's just something about the ocean that makes me feel all good inside.

kings dominion trip...awesome...good day with some nice people from clyde's. maggie and i pretty much bummed around together. and i rode the drop zone....oooohhhh my god....that almost made me have a panic attack...but so great that i rode it twice..hehe

and talk with brian...it was good..and nice...but not too nice cause i'm still at a loss for why the fuck he broke up with me...what a loser. just hoping for an explanation someday. we are meeting for lunch. i'll be sooo pissed if i cry in front of him...

what else...well unfortunately now i'm at work in the office answering phones. not tooo bad...but really stupid people calling for really stupid questions. anyway...i'm off to answer the phone. i'll keep ya'll updated...even though i don't even know who even reads this...

Current Mood: yes high
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
3:36 pm
oh so baked.....
oh wow am i high!!! but i am sooo behind on all the stuff i wanted to get done today. by now i should be chilling at angela's, hanging out with her and alex, taking bong hits. but yes i am high but i am also doing laundry. fun times...

well i'm hurrying it along...or at least trying to kick my slow, high ass in gear! i was going to hang out with brian tonight...get some coffee...but i don't know. i'm thinking i'm just too damn busy to have to make time for him. but i would like to see him and talk just to see where each of us are now. i don't know...crazy.

and i'm also suppose to hang out with joce and chris...they want to eat clyde's food...i suggested take out cuz i ain't trying to eat there. no thank you!

alright back to it...angela i promise i'm trying to hurry...hehehehehehehehehehehe.

Current Mood: high
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
1:23 pm
i miss pot smoking patty...
well let's see where to start...there has been some things going on these past couples days....crazy things...some fun and good and some not so good.

a bunch of clyde's peeps went to an O's game. we had a huge charter bus take us full of liqour and beer. it was insane the amount of alcohol consumed by this group that night. oh and we were all taking shots from a weed killing spray thingy - i have no idea what it is...but crazy....

i had a very good time. it was a first for me to go out and hang out with everyone at work. let's just say most people i work with like me but think i'm antisocial. so i went and ya know what....i had fun. it was nice to hang out with angela, jesse, regan...my close friends and it was nice to meet some new ones.

ang unfortunately didn't have a good night, and my drunkin ass didn't do anything to help that. i was drunk and yes hooking up with a guy in the back of the dark bus...*me shaking my head at myself*

nothing really happened with me and this guy....just a little making out...but in the seats behind us lindz was giving scott head...thank god i was preoccupied and didn't have to experience that...

anyhoo...here we are a couple days later...i had a rough day with my stomach...surprise surprise...so it seems the problem with my stomach is worse than just drinking...may need surgery..fun for me...and on top of being sick i haven't hung out with angela, smoked some major pot and talked with her about the past few events. it's weird, i'm so used to talking to her everyday and telling her everything...i need a drive...i guess we'll have plenty of time to talk on the way to the beach! miss you girl!

ok this is long...sorry i had to put this all up....the past couple days i didn't feel like writing about all this crap. but here it is...and there is soooo much more....there are some great pictures on angela's journal glass_doll.

Current Mood: nauseated
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
1:36 am
this to me just fits the moment.....
i'm watching x-files thinking that maybe you can sense me watching it...just for you...

Untouchable Face by Ani

think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you
I could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer
the worst in you
too bad you had ot have a better half
she's not really my type
but i you two are forever
and i hate to say it but
you're perfect together

so fuck you
and you untoubable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for you touch
and who i am
i bet you can't even tell me that much

two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say

except fuck you...

and your untouchable face
fuck you
for existing in the first place

and it goes on....

Current Mood: worried
Sunday, July 25th, 2004
2:19 am
what a perfect song...
All the fear has left me know
I'm not freightened anymore
It's my heart that pound beneath my flesh
It's my mouth that pushes out this breath
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
they will dance and we will play
with chairs, candles and cloths
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in and out
Upstream or down without a thought
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle
to find peace
comfort on the way
to comfort
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if i feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love...

FUMBLING TOWARD ECSTACY
...welcome to my world.

Current Mood: pensive
2:11 am
wow i'm still in my pjs from the night before :o)
well. not sure where to start...went out last night to DC, got my first experience at a strip club, got completely wasted, got to know many people on the metro ride home, came home, got depressed, angela saved me...thank for all the quotes you're the best!

and then...passed out, woke up sick, hate my stomach...hung out with angela and saw my bestest friend in the whole world...jay! love him! he's living for LA tomorrow to shot a commercial...how neat is that. he lives in ny and is a director and graphic designer. i've known him my whole life and don't get to see him too much. but i'm soo very proud of him and all that he does!

anyway...now i'm smoking some bud to insure a great nights sleep! i'm not thinking about brian and i'm not sad...i'm just realizing how to say goodbye! thanks for the support angela...i know i can be crazy! gotta luv me!

Current Mood: lethargic
Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
12:57 am
What a great couple of dayz....
well i hardly know what day it is. last night was drugs, alcohol, and more drugs. and of course some boob action. i seem to take some very nice photos...mmmmm. anyway. and tonight oh wow...gravity bong hits and then hot tub. things just keep getting better and better. now it's time for slllleeeeepppp!
Sunday, July 18th, 2004
4:20 am
well i'm totally exhausted. it's fucking 4:20 (yes that's the exact time right now) and i am wasted and stoned. what a feeling....anyhoo...tonight was a very interesting night. i basically spent most of the night writing this damn paper (screw grad school)...but at about midnight i decided to go to a going away party right up the street from me. it's the whole high school crowd...which is good and bad. i got completely wasted...danced around for awhile...then sat in my car and smoked bud with some old smoking buddies :o) its always great to see my girls but there is always drama...even now!!! anyway...long night, lots of fun, but now i'm tired. need sleep. MUST FINISH PAPER!!!!! TOMORROW!!!! hehe...yah right! love you all!

Current Mood: mellow
Friday, July 16th, 2004
12:01 am
ahhh what a lovely night. my girls came and visited me (angela, jesse and kellie), love you girls! we rolled a fatty and got smacked. what a perfect evening. now i'm chilling watching Law and Order SVU...yes i am addicted. i'm really doing a great job procrastinating on this paper....15 pages by tuesday...7 down....i can do it! then its party time....be ready!

Current Mood: peaceful
Monday, July 12th, 2004
1:15 am
well i just started this live journal thing. i'm a newbie :o) its taking me a little while to set up the whole thing...there's so much to get distracted with. it's fun times. well i just smoked and ate with angela...fun times as always. now it's off to bed so i can go to work and waste my time...damn clydes.

Current Mood: and drained
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
10:55 pm
testing 1,2,3

Current Mood: confused
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